5 years of love

Our 5th anniversity was on June 16th and instead of a dinner date or whatever, we opted for a photo shoot with my friend Amanda. I love the photos, they came out great.

Look. Don't touch.

Is it wrong to have a crush on someone while in a commited relationship? No. At least I don't think it is. I know my man is good looking but that doesn't mean there isn't other good looking men out there. Such as the sexy guy working a the cell phone kiosk at the mall with that smile he flashes at me whenever I walk by for the 3rd or 4th time (why did I come to mall anyway). He's just eye candy though. I wouldn't dare exchange numbers with him or anything beyond that. Just think back to 3rd grade and you had a crush on the cutest guy in your class but you were to shy to flirt, I don't even think I knew what flirting was, but all I knew is that he was cute and I would die if he knew that I constantly day dreamed about him. It's just like that, an innocent crush. I don't love my boyfriend any less or think he's less attractive having some eye candy and especially because I know he checks out other girls. We'll be in line at QT and he'll say "That girl has nice legs", but it's alright because it's my legs that will be wrapped around him later on and mine are nicer.  

Crushes come and go but our reletionship gets stronger by the year. I'll continue admiring God's work from a distance and that's it. It's pleasure for the eyes and who doesn't want pleasures in life? Just remember to look, not touch.

Acceptance and Love.

    Like most of us ladies, I have my insercurities. Even though we work out, buy that expensive foundation and wear the cutest clothes, there's something you still see as an imperfection. I am done trying to whine about this or that, I have come to accept who I am. My imperfections make me unique, but I also know I'm not alone. In the journey of becoming a young lady from a little girl, I have attained acne scars, stretch marks, weight, overbite, cellulite, and the list goes on. But so what if I broke out from eating too many hot cheetos and soda and so what if I let myself go for a bit, I don't need to be worrying about how I look on the outside, but rather the inside because that it really is what matters. I know people always say that, but it's true. No one is going to be a TRUE friend if you're a cold hearted bitch who just so happens to have the perfect hair, face and body. I'm not saying that people should just stop exercising, it's nice to keep your body looking good or and it's okay to have a few extra pieces of cake, or the whole cake! Whatever! Even though that cake alone could have been 1,000 calories, I don't care, it was yummy! So keep in my mind that perfection is unattainable, it's best to accept who you are and embrace what you got.
    There is things that I love about myself too, not to be concieted or anything, but I do. I love the natural color of my hair and how it shines in the sunlight. I love my full lips. I love the color beautiful color of my brown skin, my glow (No need for tans) and I love how I'm open minded, being able to put myself in someone's shoes, whether they're Airwalks or Louboutin's. A good friend, sister, cousin, brother, mother, girlfriend, whatever you may be, a good person is understanding. Narrow minded people just see it one way, and it isn't one way.
     People may have a blast making fun of others, knowing they have things about themselves that isn't up to their own standards. I have to admit I am guilty of saying, "That girl so doesn't wear size 1, especailly with that muffin" or "She needs to learn how to put on eyeliner", but I'm learning and accepting that I also have my faults. We all do. Learn to accept and learn to love.